AUSTRALIA goal shooter Caitlin Thwaites has revealed her battle with depression, saying netball helped when she was at her lowest point.
Thwaites said her condition often left her hyperventilating and uncontrollably shaking, but the Glasgow Commonwealth Games gold medallist did not know what caused it.
"When I did finally get that diagnosis it was a huge relief because it had a name and there was a prognosis," the Collingwood shooter said on Nine's In Her Court podcast.
"There were specific things that I could then do to help myself."
The 30-year-old said she reached her lowest point at the age of 21, but said netball was the only thing that got her out of bed.
"The reason behind that was because it was the only place where I felt like I was going to be missed," she said.
"For me to know there were people out there relying on me was actually a huge motivating factor for me."
Thwaites arrived at Collingwood this year after a stint at the NSW Swifts where she shot 537 goals at 88.8 per cent in 2016.
With the best accuracy rate in the entire league, Thwaites said she ignored medical advice to temporarily step away from the sport and chose to speak up and manage a recovery.
"I think netball and sport for me has always been a place where I can almost have a bit of self worth from my ability on the sports field and so that has been really amazing," she said.
"It doesn't actually matter what is going on in my life elsewhere, it is almost like you can put on a uniform and be someone else for a little while."
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